On The 11th Anniversary Of My Death
11 years ago I had my NDE (near-death-experience) that not only changed my life forever, but that started my very own spiritual awakening. Many of us here on earth at this time have faced some dire physical issues, (sickness, illness, chronic pain, etc.) and although these situations are very much unwanted, many people’s spiritual awakening does originate, and get triggered by a health crisis.
It saddens me to think of all that I lost 11 years ago, my children, my dreams to be a mother, my physical health & wellness. But, I try to always remind myself of the bigger picture, the bigger plan at play. I was given a second chance at life. I was given amazing gifts to help others align with their power and heal themselves in the process.
Although I still continue to struggle to be open with my past, my journey, and my current struggles, I do feel like I have touched so many people’s lives, that it makes what I went through worth it. I have been able to help heal others while helping to heal myself.
Because of my experience with losing my babies and not having the opportunity to be a Mom here in this life time, I have been able to help heal the other Moms out there with angel babies in heaven. Losing a child at any stage in life is probably the most devastating life experience you could ever have. The pain never fully goes away. Even knowing that they are in a better place (and being able to speak to them in spirit whenever I want) still doesn’t lessen the weight that I carry on my heart space.
I have had the absolute honour and privilege to help other Moms wade through the dark waters of this realm without their child here with them. It’s no easy task, but apparently I was chosen to do it. I have had the great honour in connecting those Moms to their spirit children to help them understand that the loss was not their fault.
Understanding how soul contracts work was an absolute game changer for me. It did lessen the blow of the hurt I was carrying, realizing that we all agreed to this. That my babies were never meant to live an actual physical life, but instead act as the catalyst for me to gain meaning and purpose through honouring them and their memory through helping to heal others. I have had the absolute honour of counselling angel baby Mothers to a place of peace, and even watch them bring their rainbow babies into the world. It’s bittersweet. It always will be bitter sweet to me.
But today, on the 11th anniversary of my death, I am aiming to reach more people than ever. I am entering into my 11th year of healing and energy work, which SCREAMS connecting to larger audiences (11th house rules). I want to be that quiet post a stranger stumbles upon on the internet in their time of need. I want them to feel connected and not so alone. This is a heavy world, where we’ve been given heavy karmic contracts to fill. We are all struggling to process and integrate our past pain and trauma, to raise our vibration and stand in the light.
Whatever your storyline is, however heavy it may be, you’re not alone! You’re NEVER alone.
The Universe is too intelligent to have you bear such weight and responsibility without the right support system in place to help you on your way. We are connecting to like-minded people from all over the world, recognizing parts of ourselves in complete strangers. THIS is the energy connection we’ve been sent here to make. THIS is the coming together of the collective consciousness that will help heal the planet while we help heal ourselves and each other.
I want to thank every single one of you for being a part of my journey. For sharing such a beautiful soul contract with me to push through life’s challenges together, as one consciousness, as one heart space. My hope is that you will continue to walk this path with me as we create a vision for the future where love conquers all.
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